Unfruitful

Dear God,

Unfruitful is the word to describe all this time that I have spent at home just doing nothing. Really, my holidays are ending, and I do not have much more time left to do what I can. Is there really nothing that I can do? You have not made any trees to not bear fruit, but God, what do I do?

I have run out of ideas, and it has already been a comfort zone for me. I have to breakthrough this comfort zone once again, to go a further distance for the lost. Even if it is not sports, God, let my life be a worship to you, to reach out to the lost, to lead your people to your promise. Let your Fire fall down, on us.

I just saw my timetable recently, and well, it is not exactly the easiest to heed to. Wow, God, it is practically full! What do I do with such a timetable? And next to not having time, how will I be able to cope and not get tired? God, I am the weakest in will among all my classmates, but I know that my will will not be broken because I have you with me. My solid wall by my side, which will never give way!

Let my heart be humble, and let it be open to your word.

A real man is tender to others, but tough on himself. Leads himself with his head, but lead others with his heart.

In Jesus name, Amen

Reviving this old blog

Wow, it has been a long long time since I blogged, and well, glad to be back here, was on the train when the Holy Spirit kept ranging in my heart that I should type down what I have learnt, so that others will be able to as well! =D

Well, some people may know that I had a defeating day today, and well, really crushed by what had happened, and is happening around me. But as I was taking the MRT back home, I purposely sat on the reserve seat and leaned against the glass panel.
Let me explain myself. I am not ZiBi, or emoing, but to give whoever reads this some background knowledge, my number 1 love language is touch. And well, it really is hard to feel God’s love to the max when it is something like that right? But here’s the thing I learnt yesterday during PnW. The wall is an awesome place where God resides. It is where God is when you are down. Why do I say that? Because in the bible,

2Samuel 22:3
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield and the horn of my salvation.
He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior
from violent men you save me.

God is a rock we can lean on and take refuge. Singapore don’t have many rocks we can cling on to, but however, this verse speaks from this angle, that we can Lean On God all the time! When we are weak, defeated, or tired!

and well, the presence and love of God really touched me from the inside out today, as I simply leaned against the panel, and shouted out to God from the depths of my heart, my complains, my anger at certain things, my insecurities.
And He really consoled me, with his presence. and this is something all should know. It is not the manifestation that we should seek, but the Holy Spirit itself. We do not seek for unnatural things to happen to know that the Holy Spirit is with us!

The Holy Spirit is already in our hearts ever since we recieved Jesus into our lives!!

2 Corinthians 13:14 (New International Version)

May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the (fellowship of the Holy Spirit) be with you all.

Keyword: Fellowship of the Holy Spirit.

To many people out there, especially in our church, we like to say, I want to fellowship with this person, that person, and in the end, just spend time playing basketball, eat, talk about some funny things that happened recently, shopping.

Fellowship in the dictionary means Companionship;Company.

Companions share their life to each other, share their struggles, and good times. Rely on each other, and help each other out.
It is easy to do such things with a Physical Companion. However, the verse says! Fellowship with the Holy Spirit! He is there with us no matter what the time is! Many will go through life without Him, but still claims the fact that He is with us!

He can be in everything! And recently, God spoke to me, “Lean on Me” I was taken aback. And when I looked around, the only thing around was a sweaty guy(Yong En) and a wall next to me. Of coz i chose the wall, and well, Holy Spirit really filled me. To all who reads this post, I want to let you know. God is someone who you can lean on! And Fellowship with God! Do not seek Manifestations or Miracles, but seek his still small voice in the hustle and bustle of the world!

2Corinthians 12:9

Tired..

Very tired recently.. a lot of things clash.. then have to run here run there.. really thank God for so many things and the people around me.. Recently very very tired lerh.. just feel like falling flat.. but, i will not go down!! I will stand strong, with Everlasting Providence.. Psalms 23:1!!!

School started~

School has started for me..

it started off with a blast with Leadership and team building camp xD super fun~ now it is lessons.. Comm skills kinda fun~ keep disturbing teacher~ xD

Today Appreciation of Life Sciences.. A lot i already learn from Biology.. so not really much problem xD haha.. Really Thank God for so many things xD

Love Running~

Your eyes smiles to me.. I can’t forget it..

School start lerh! woohoo~ The camp was a blast!! everything was very fun.. the people are also fun.. willing to open up and very encouraging, with strong team spirit! xD

Still remember the Log Ladder, Lorenzo and I climb like mad.. almost all he push me up derh.. really thank God for him xD

It was  a super difficult climb, which i would have given up halfway.. But he pushed me.. and encouraged me.. That is what people tend to forget to do.. I still remember that i prayed before the climb.. haha.. i was pretty sure that i could not reach the top, but God still made a way~ lessons today oso kinda funny.. haha~ JIAYOU!! xD

During camp met this girl~

Oh.. i was at Cyril’s blog, and well I read some pretty cool stuff.. Do not judge others.. thats what i should learn.. What rights do i have to judge others? I should stop acting so childish, and stop living in my own world..

Satan will try to convince you that you are an unworthy, unacceptable, sin-sick person who will never amount to anything in God’s eyes.

New start~

trying out wordpress as Cyril recommended.. xD

very tired from everything that is happening..

I don’t know what is going through in my mind.. very tired..

A Child of God! My identity..

Salt of the earth

light of the world

part of the true vine,a channel of Christ’s life

Friend of God,

chosen and appointed by Christ to bear his fruit

slave of righteousness

God is my spiritual Father

heir of with Christ, sharing His inheritance with Him

Temple of God

Member of Christ’s body,

New creation, I am a saint

I am God’s workmanship

Righteous and holy

citizen of heaven, with my seat already in heaven..

Chosen by God to do great works in other people’s life

Son of light, and not of darkness

Enemy of the devil

I am born of God, and Satan can’t touch me

I am not great, but by the Grace of God, i am who i am